Happy Snow Day.

February 2, 2011, 6:17 pm

Joey and I were looking out of our window at the army of people cleaning off their cars and sidewalks and thought... "it's cool that mother nature, occasionally, forces you to stop". I don't know how I managed my first two winters here! This is number three and it's paled in comparison to the others. Today has given me that cold, gray feeling that past winters have. Whatever it is, i don't like it. It's lonely and depressing. I see myself in the contrast of winter. The same reasons it's beautiful are the same reasons it's so ugly. The clean snow brings gray skies, the the cold weather brings sexy scarves. I see my potential but I tend to lean towards destructive things. People that know me think I'm crazy when I say things like this... I'm young, got a good job, respectful, driven, I open doors for ladies, I'm pretty responsible. All those things are good but things that really affect the person I am are things like - how often I'll stare at the "porn" ad on the side bar, how often I trick myself into thinking my motives are something different, how often I act out of insecurity, how much I try to control what someone else thinks about me because I've figured out how, how many times I read through this post, editing, rewriting before actually posting it. Even this line, I rewrote. These things, people can't see. I think I'm honest most of the time, but I'm also aware that, subconsciously, I may not be. This post is me being completely honest about how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking. But, I know that people will think of me as more honest after reading it, so I questions - if I'm aware that that is a result of a blog like this, how much is that apart of my motivation? It's really something to "not care". I want to get to the point where I am more humble, more honest and genuinely don't care what people think. I want to search for the truth and do what truth and I find to be right.

taylor

Disclaimer: Because of insecurity, I must tell you, this is improvisational writing. Mind you, I've not processed this completely and by tomorrow I may wish that I would have just said - Happy Snow Day.

Boogie Boarding

January 12, 2011, 11:00 am

Hannah thought this was so funny and we decided to upload to give the world a laugh.
I never got any better.   Enjoy :)

A Holiday Hug For You.

December 21, 2010, 7:25 pm

A camera was left on and it caught me and my friend Brad Showalter hugging as I'm walking off stage. I know it sounds strange but, the music is definitely not overdubbed. It was playing in real life, like a movie. It was electric and we were in love. I think of this from time to time and it still makes me laugh... so I thought I'd share.

Enjoy.

Iron Lung

December 8, 2010, 9:51 pm

I recorded a quick video at our apartment of my song "Iron Lung".
I wrote this few months back. Its one of my favorites.
This video is far overdue, my apologies.